Progress is a Process

Only when people stop giving it lip service, and realize that we are all the same, that we are all one, will things really change. Because at that point things could not help but change. For when you take away the idea of self, of ego, of I, of ‘personal’ ‘property’—’mine not yours’; ‘ours not theirs’—it subverts and essentially negates all of those Western ideas and concepts on which our societies and governments are based and run. There would be, there could be, no capitalism, nor socialism, nor communism, nor any system based at all on the idea of ownership, on ‘me,’ or ‘us,’ or ‘they,’ or ‘you.’

If there is one concept that is the root trouble-maker when it comes to ‘society,’ it is the concept of ownership, for within that concept rests the concept of I, of mine (‘owner’). If there is no me, no self, in the way that Western ideology (mis)understands it, then there simply can be no concept of ownership—it is utterly precluded from existing as a reality—for it is, in really, an illusion.

This is why socialism is the closest of the systems of social organization to reality, but the reason socialism doesn’t work in practice is that the people all need to understand and live these truths. Since that is not the case, it won’t work.

A theory is not wrong because it does not work in a certain practice, with particular conditions; for it is possible to change the conditions and the theory may work just fine. So the problem is not necessarily the theory, but the conditions into which it is thrown. Of course socialism doesn’t work—if for no other reason than the people need to have it imposed upon them, that they still need to be, and want to be, controlled. You can’t toss larvae in the air and expect them to fly. You can dress a child up like an adult, but it will still be, in reality, a child in adult clothing.

The only way for ‘socialism’ to work, and further, for ‘anarchy’ (no central government) to work, is for everyone to ‘get it.’ The only way to achieve this kind of higher level of social organization is to work on helping everyone get it. And that is a slow, and hard, and thankless job. But there is no magic wand to wave over the world that will cause people to wake up the next morning and just get it.

For better or worse, life is process, and as such, we must understand that this, too, is process, is a process, and as a process, we must do the work that we can as being part of that process.

The progress you make may not be what you wished it would be, but then you must at that point realize the work you still need to do on yourself if you are still thinking that way, are still being controlled and led by your ego’s desires and selfish interests.

The only way (I see) to work for the solution is to do what you can do, to help the process of real education, to help people educate themselves properly—that is, to help them learn personal responsibility, how to think for themselves, to see that they actually and really do want to control themselves, to grow up. (This should in no way be understood in the way those slimy Republicans blather on about “personal responsibility”, since that comes from not giving a rat’s ass about people, and what I’m talking about here comes from giving a whale’s ass about people.)

Although it’s a cliché, clichés are clichés because they are often true, and this is no exception: By helping one person you are helping to change the world, for it must happen as a process, and we are a part of that process.

To look for a shortcut is to not get it. That would be yet another indication of lack of true awareness. There are no shortcuts to happiness, to living truly. This is something that anyone who gets it needs to fully accept.

I know that that is one of the things I am personally working on right now. It isn’t easy. It goes against what people call our ‘human nature’. But, as my point has always been, that is not necessarily our entire human nature, it is our conditioned way of being, and what is conditioned can be de-conditioned. But, again, it is a process, and the point is that we need to do what we can to help ourselves and people in the right direction. And to do that means that we need to look at our own lives and examine what we are doing with our time and energy. Are we really working for the solution, or are we thinking we are working for the solution but really working towards the problem?

Are we subverting the system, or are we inadvertently supporting and strengthening it?

It means that we need to realize that we cannot help everyone. We need to choose who we try to help, and work with, and learn from. For it is all also a part of our own path, our own awakening.

This takes much, much effort and concentration. And for better or worse, the more a person realizes these things, the more they will realize, as I have, that they cannot be of this system and work towards the solution, for a part of the solution is the subversion and replacement of that system, not with another system, but with reality, with love, with no longer needing such a system.

The more you realize the truth of things, the less you will be able to live your life the way you have been living it, the less you will be able to fit into the system. If that doesn’t happen, then you’re not on to the truth of things yet. It’s pretty much a guarantee, actually. And that is another reason why most people fail and give up—because they don’t have the strength to do this. They may see a part of the truth, but their egos, their selfish desires, are still more powerful. In the end, they are weak.

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From my personal notes, 8/23/00

Armor

The reason that ‘the system’ has so much power is that it is predicated on the need for armor, on the need to protect and look out for oneself (one’s self), if one is to survive. It makes it necessary to have armor on. The system protects itself extremely well this way. And since this society is expressly not oriented towards love and enlightenment, people do not know how to love. The ‘love’ that most people feel is not love at all but is something else—desire, lust, loneliness, blind passion, or any number of other things. People do not know how to love because they do not know what love is. They do not know what love is because love is not about ‘me’. And in this society, the self, the I, the ‘me’, is primary, and that which is ‘not me’ is secondary (if it’s thought about at all).

Those who (seem to) put others before themselves might come across, and think about themselves, as if they are selfless, but more likely than not, they are actually being selfish.

The only way to escape from this vicious cycle is to see that this duality on which we base so much of our philosophy, religion, values, and beliefs is quite possibly, if not probably, an illusion. To see the reality of this illusion is so fundamentally subversive to so much of what is today, that it is quite overwhelming. At least it is to me. The only way to understand love is to at least try to understand that real love ‘transcends’ this duality of ‘me’ and (or even more tellingly: ‘vs.’) ‘you’.

I want to try to be clear about this. What is the armor in the analogy above? The best way for me to describe it is that the armor is the ego and all that it spawns, meaning that it also has armor to protect itself not only from the world but—and this is complicated and important—from our true selves. This is why the analogy is not as simple as it might first seem.

I’m not saying we should all be hippies. Most hippies do espouse love, and I’m sure that many believe in the love they espouse, but I do not believe that most of them really know what love is, let alone know how to really love and be loved. Rather, most hippies (and pseudo-hippies) are products of their conditioning, like everyone else, just in a certain way. Underneath their own armor, they are the same as everyone else, with the same neuroses, the same human conditions, that require the right efforts to deal with and understand. As such, the point is not that I am saying that one should take off one’s armor, for that would be flippant. The reason it would be flippant is that to take off one’s armor is to ‘transcend’ one’s ego, and that is, quite complicatedly, the process of enlightenment, the process of self-awareness.

The reason it would be flippant is that while I know that this is the way to take off my armor, I do not really know how to do it. But, I do know that the first step is to understand what the armor is. How else can one possibly take it off?

As such, since the armor is the ego, hippies have just as much armor as anyone else—it’s just that the mask that their egos put on is one of ‘love’. And so the problem is even more complicated than it was before. Because not only do I know that to be happy I need to take off my armor, to live without the armor, and that if I take it off I might get stomped to a pulp, but also I have the problem that I don’t know where the damn straps are.

And that is sort of where I find myself now: fumbling for the straps.

But, I wonder what the point is of working so hard to find and undo the straps when, unless I want to go off and live alone on the top of a mountain, I will probably get pulverized when I do. I feel as if I have already had such a beating that I do not even really understand just how much of a beating I have had, and as such, I am still sort of reeling. I know this because of the sadness I feel, and how much I keep it at bay. Will I recover from this? I really do not know. I really don’t. And I don’t know the point of trying anyway. In the end, I am just a speck of a human organism on a planet out in the dark of space.

I know that part of enlightenment is understanding that I do not matter, but it is so hard to do that in this society when so many people do not understand what that means, and they fight against it because they need to feel that they do matter.

This is why the process of self-awareness can be dangerous, because there is not much support out there; there is, when you get right down to it, pretty much the opposite.

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From my personal notes 8/13/00

I Am a Student of Life

So, when I say that when I see people I understand them and so can move on [see "I Study People"], it is not that I claim to understand the complexity of who they really are, nor that I understand ‘the human’ and the entire human condition, because I do not, and never claimed to. I would love to deal with, and interact with, and learn from, who people really are; the problem is that most people simply do not live on that level, their true ‘not-selves’ are hidden behind their wall(s).

I love to deal with who people are, but most of the time I only encounter what they are, for they do not express who they are, they do not want to, and often mistake what they are for who they are.

What someone is interests me very little. This is what people do not understand about me. They think I hate people, or that I think I am above them, or better than them or something. But that is not the case. Not even close. I love people. But I don’t like the façade, and most people live their lives with the façade in full swing, and I am over the façade, I get very little out of it except for those surface-level pleasures we can get from it. And I can enjoy such pleasures as much as the next person, but I see them for what they are, and they are certainly only a part of life; but for most people it is their entire lives. Now, again, I’m not saying that people aren’t ‘deep,’ or complex, but rather that they simply don’t tap into that (for lack of a better term) ‘truer’ part of themselves very often, at least around other people (if they’re even able to, that is, which is up for debate).

I simply can’t live most of my life on that essentially superficial level. I don’t want to. Who people are, and ‘whos’ interacting with each other, speaks to what I love about life, the beauty and passion and vitality of life. This is what I want. It’s just hard to find.

Now, a lot of people, some of whom are very smart, get a glimpse of all this, see that ‘the superficial world’ and the so-called pleasures of life are not what it is all about, and they take the other extreme; they deny this part of life, they deny or dismiss the illusory Matrix, and try to focus instead on what they think is not the Matrix. Examples are religious ascetics and philosophers who focus on metaphysics. I think that this is a mistake.

It is important to point out here that I am aware of—and recognize the truth of—the idea, which some ancient Hindus seemed to understand very well, that the path to enlightenment is through the self; in other words, that the ‘divine’ is (‘in’) everything. Or, said another way, that the only way to get to reality is by way of the illusion. To ignore or attempt to side-step the illusion is to ignore reality. To attempt to bypass the illusion, and try to find a positive metaphysics or spirituality, is to completely miss the point, to veer completely off the path. It is, in reality, an exercise in futility.

And so the point is that only by living life can we understand what lies beneath the surface. We can only get to the beauty and reality of truth and life by way of the illusory. This touches on the human truth that only through suffering and hardship comes enlightenment, understanding. And so it is true that we must jump in and live life, we must look to life for the answers. All of the answers, all of reality, is to be found ‘in’ the illusory, is to be found through the illusory.

I’m not the one to say where each person is on their path. But just because someone has an experience does not mean that they will learn from it, really gain from it. Most experiences are wasted experiences. Especially because people focus so much on the immediate, on the visceral, on the pleasure-principle. They mistake pleasure, and the fulfillment of desire, for happiness.

So, again—it is not what you experience but how you experience it that matters. Even people who crave new experiences can be in rut if they are not really moving forward with or because of those experiences.

The stuff of life is our material, it has within it everything we need to learn and grow and move to the ‘next level’ of being. This is why I say I am a student of life. It takes time and effort. There is no getting around this. There are no short cuts, at least that I am aware of. And the person who really gets it would never want a short cut, because he/she would see the ignorance, selfishness, and futility of looking for one.

The effort needs to be put in.

Maybe, like childbirth, it is harder for some, easier for others. This is fine with me. I don’t think this is unfair. It is simply the way it is. But, I think that it is safe to say that it is much harder, and takes much more time and effort, than most people realize. Especially when they do some of that effort and get a little along and then either get tired or sick of it, or realize that they can’t get the things they desire in life while doing it, and they decide that they ‘get it’ and stop. I think this happens often with people who make a little effort. And it is why any time I encounter people who think they get it, who think they have done it, I say that that is the only sign I need that they haven’t.

Anyone who thinks they ‘know’ surely does not. It’s actually quite nice and tidy the way that works. Another example of life being infinitely more simple, and more complex, than most people understand.

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From my personal notes, 8/12/00

I Study People

I study people. I want to understand why and how they do what they do. [I also study what I call "the system," or "the Matrix" (as metaphor, of course).] I am not studying this in order to be a part of it, for selfish reasons, to get the better of others, to be able to manipulate them to my will, to better get what I desire. My goal is happiness for people, for life.

But while I study the system, ‘the matrix,’ I know that it is not real in the way reality is real. To do within and of the system is not to be a part of the solution. The point is not to give this illusory existence more credit than it deserves, not to buy into it too much, but rather to see it as, and for what, it really is. And as such, my study cannot fit into any of the established –ologies, for these branches all study the human condition while simultaneiously buying into what ‘is’ without the understanding of the difference between what is and what really is.

One cannot buy into the illusion if he/she wants to understand reality. You can’t look to the illusion to give you positive knowledge of realty; rather, you must study the illusion as an illusion, and as such, ‘negatively,’ in that you learn from the illusion what is not, not what ‘is’. It is about direction, and I think that most people are going in, approaching stuff from, the wrong direction.

One of the reasons I mention this is that people may wonder why I don’t study most people in more depth. It is because most people are not study-worthy. Most people live and express themselves as an illusory ego-self, and as such are boring to me.

Most people are at a level of denial, their wall is at a certain place, and, as such, one can only go so far with learning from them.

Everyone is as complex as everyone else. The difference is where their walls are. And so it ends up being a matter of speculation—which can be fun, but ends up being academic.

The point is that people who are mostly controlled end up behaving in the same ways as other people who are controlled. And so it gets repetitive. After initially getting to know people, they tend to be fairly derivative, which is a bummer, because I wish they would be more original—meaning: more themselves; not simply a product of the typical illusions by which most people live their lives.

If such-and-such a person is not able, or willing, to push the wall back, then there’s nothing to learn from them, as all you’re going to get is their conditioned self at the level of unawareness at which they live and are.

And so I may go out with a friend, who I know is incredibly complex under the surface, but if they hide that complexity behind the wall, all I get is what is in front of the wall, and after a time, I’ve seen what there is to see, and it is often quite similar to what is in front of most people’s walls.

I get it. I’m interested in who people really are, not (just) what they have in front of their walls. The problem is that it is hard to find people whose walls are not so far out in front of their real beings. This is why I don’t spend so much time on most people, on those who are so plugged into the system, for though I think it is important to study and try to understand the system, we must keep in mind that it is a system, it is the Matrix, it is not reality, it is an illusion, it is what it is. And keeping that in mind, it is waste of time to spend time on that which will provide me with no further understanding.

I am sure that there is a lot out there that will give me more understanding, whether it be art, people, experiences, places, etc. And these are the things I want to seek out. The surface level of why people do what they do is rather simple once it is understood. Which essentially comes down to ego and selfish desire. On the other hand, it is what happens—what people are like, who they are when they deal with these issues, when they really start to ‘awaken’, when they start deconstructing their conditioned existences—that I am interested in. For that is closer to, and in the direction of, reality, love, truth, what really is. Unfortunately, it has been my experience that such people are rare, and thus hard to find.

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From my personal notes, 8/12/00

Passive Activity

It is interesting to observe people and see how much they try to control their lives. This is interesting because it is a great contrast to what I am talking about with ‘self-control.’ There is a difference between being able to ‘control yourself,’ and trying to control reality, trying to control other people and the world around you.

People try to insulate themselves from the bad things about life, and many people often can (people with a lot of money, for example). The analogy can be made of a rich person living in NYC, high above the street in their luxury home, always taking limos to the beautiful places, only seeing beautiful people, and never touching the ground, never having to deal with the dirt, the sweat, scum and intensity, the beauty and ugliness and reality of what is going on in the streets.

This is not to say, of course, that the amount of money one has indicates their level of awakening and maturity, that poor people ‘get it’ more than rich people; but, rather, that rich people are able—through the means afforded them in a capitalist, materialistic society—to avoid reality more (or, at least, differently) than poor people. (Or, it might be better to say, “attempt to” avoid reality.)

As I have said many times, anyone—rich or poor—can choose ‘awakening’. The rich/poor thing is, rather, a metaphor for trying to mold life in such a way as to avoid and escape from having to deal with reality.

To be sure, a homeless person can do the exact same thing as the penthouse snob, just in a different way. He can construct a version of the way he sees the world, a version of ‘reality,’ and he can avoid having to deal with reality, with having to deal with himself in a brave and honest way.

We all have our egos, our ‘identities,’ our simple-minded and unquestioned understanding of the self and how it fits into the rest of reality; and we also try to manipulate, control, and mold reality in a way that suites us, suites our desires, values, and beliefs (in other words, our illusions). Instead of learning how to adapt and work with and in reality, we try to make reality adapt to us; and if we can’t, we ignore it and just move on with our agenda.

And, to be sure, most people don’t even actively control and mold their lives, but, rather, as conditioned beings, it is pre-molded, ‘pre-installed,’ and so they just go along with this conceptual framework that was conditioned for them, they ‘mold’ and ‘control’ their lives according to the way they see the world—passively, under the illusion of real action. The way to understand this is to think of passive activity; for example, a remote-controlled robot may be active in that it is moving, but it is not in control of its movement, and so its activity is passive.

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From my personal notes, 8/12/00

Life is Messy

Life is messy. People can go through life trying their best to keep it clean, tidy, and in order, stagnant and unchanging, but life is a process, it is always changing, and the less we go along with that—the less we are able to adapt to it—the harder things will be for us.

To be sure, there are those who are so good at keeping reality at bay that they never have to deal with it. They may take this as a sign that the things I am talking about are wrong, but I still think that an avoidance of reality is an avoidance of reality, and that they will eventually have to deal with it, for I think that all things move towards reality, towards truth, that even though humans effectively think they are the masters of the universe, they most certainly are not; and even they will be drawn towards reality, for that is the major force of life; it is life.

One, very small, tiny person’s avoidance of reality does not change what reality is, it doesn’t change the rules. We can break the rules, avoid the rules, live in denial of them, but that doesn’t change them, and we can’t avoid them forever—one life is but a blip on a blip of a blip to (essentialy) infinity. It means nothing in itself, but only as a part of the whole, part of the process.

To be sure, most of us, if not all of us, try to control and mold life to our liking. We try to freeze a reality that actually keeps on going and changing. We try to keep it tidy in ways that it simply can’t be so controlled. This is one of the reasons why we suffer so much. We have/create our illusions, and then we want to live them, and even egotistically mistake them for reality.

We stubbornly want things to be the way they simply are not, and we stand our ground, eyes clenched, refusing to let go.

It is this dissonance, this lack of harmony-unity by which we cause ourselves to suffer. It is not because ‘life sucks,’ but because of our own arrogance, weakness, and lack of understanding. We try to control life, we try to arrange life around ourselves, around what we believe and desire, but while life can be bent, it cannot be changed.

Reality can be seen in many ways, but it cannot be changed.

We try to bend life to our will, but it will never really work. Look at the Western mentality that is so well summed up by the general interpretation of the Bible. People think that they own the world, that they are the masters of the earth, and that it is our birthright to bend nature to our will. It is a wholly narcissistic perspective. What such people never realize is that we may manipulate nature, we may be able to mold it into shapes, like clay, but we are not changing the clay, we are not changing the ‘stuff of life,’ but merely manipulating it. We do not create but only ‘discover’ and form reality. We are born into a ‘clay’ that we can form and mold but do not ‘create,’ for we are of the clay, we are the clay. Why do we think we aren’t? Why do so many people assume such a duality? I see no good reason for it. (And while, to some, this might look like it would be compatible with ‘religion,’ and ideas of ‘gods,’ capital ‘g’ or otherwise, it most certainly is not. Oh, no, it most certainly is not.)

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From my personal notes, 8/12/00

Is Money Evil?

The basic tenet on which the/my ideas here are based is that what is ‘wrong’ is that which is based on illusion. And as such, the idea that justice can only exist as long as there exists the concept of property (ownership) is wrong because the concept of ownership is an illusion; then we can go on to realize that the concept of justice, as we know it, is an illusion as well, for that which is based on illusion is itself an illusion.

The U.S. ‘system’ is wholly based on the idea of ownership and property. Otherwise, how could they possibly have justified their invasion of this land and the slaughter of those who previously occupied it? Occupation is not ownership—it is occupation, spatially speaking. If I am holding something, I can say that I am ‘in possession’ of it, but that is not to say that I possess it in that I ‘own’ it, that it is ‘mine.’ And here we move into what is really at issue here, beyond the ideas of ownership and property. For we must question on what such concepts themselves are based. And what we find when we do so is that they are based on the concept of ‘self,’ of ‘I’ as opposed to ‘you,’ ‘mine’ as opposed to ‘yours.’ If there is no illusory self, no ‘individual,’ no separate and distinct ‘I,’ then there can be no ‘mine;’ there can be, in effect, no concept of ‘ownership’ at all, for without an owner, what can be owned, what is doing the owning? Nothing.

What we find, then, is that it is the concept of the self that is at the bottom of all these concepts, all of the concepts which make up the ideology of this system.

Many people who consider themselves to be enlightened, but who are really not much more than cynical, say that money is evil, that money is the root of all evil. But this is simple-minded. I would, rather, propose that the root of all ‘evil’ is the self. Without the self, how can I possibly do you wrong? How can I possibly be selfish, consider myself more than I do you?

And so we see that our morality, our values, our motivations, and all of our concepts that are subsequently built upon them, are based on the concept of self.

That which is morally right or wrong must be right or wrong in relation, in a context, and what provides that context is the self. ‘Right’ for whom?

Our understanding of morality is wholly dependent on the concept of the self. And if it is true that the self is an illusion, then the morality, and all that is based ideologically on it, is but an illusion, is wrong, fundamentally, wrong by way of its assumptions being erroneous.

The more one thinks about it, the more one examines the system in which he/she lives, he sees that everything by which he lives his life is based on created, human concepts which are not universal, nor objective, but are, rather, specific to a certain culture, a certain people (the survivors of the ‘might-makes-right’ idea), and thus, fairly arbitrary. This must be understood before any real change can occur. It precipitates the necessary step of realizing that that which was believed in and assumed to be true is not as true or justifiable as once thought. It forces one to abandon the foundation on which he has heretofore lived his life, because he recognizes that it is illusory. The problem is that since people are so conditioned to be weak, and to remain forever children, this process is resisted by most people, with ferocity.

And so we see that money, for example, itself is not evil, but rather it is the way it is understood and used that is or is not ‘evil.’ Money is but a tool—a means to an end. Just as a hammer is a tool—a means to an end. But a hammer can also be used as a weapon. So, what is it, a tool or a weapon? We see that ‘what it is’ depends on how it is perceived and used.

Money is not wrong. It, itself, is not evil, and, as such, need not be vilified and spurned for its own sake. To so so would be as ignorant as those who deify and overvalue money, who use money but are really used by it, and by that I mean by their own small-minded perception of what it is. To spurn money itself for no other reason than that it is money, and that it is currently misunderstood and misused by those who have the most of it for selfish and destructive reasons, is as ignorant as not using a hammer to help in building a house because you have seen it used as a weapon once.

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From my personal notes, 8/10/00

Potential

I find the idea of substance as form and matter very interesting (form being actualized potential, matter being potential form). Even further, I find the idea of potential, itself, interesting. Clay does not have the potential to be a live cat, so a live cat could never be clay. But are we not also the result, or consequence, of unactualized potential?

I have much potential that I do not actualize. I have the potential (or opportunity) to smoke crack every day, but I choose not to. Surely, who I am is partially the non-actualization of this potential.

I think it bears significance that there are potentials that are actualized and those that are not. Surely, both make us who we are (as much as who we are not), and some are very much under our control, and are thus a choice on our part. Why do some people actualize some potentials that others do not? It surely is not simply because those people have potentials that others do not—it is not that simple. And yet, people do not all have the same potential, or at least opportunity. They may have the same potential but different opportunity. A girl born in, say, rural China may have within her the potential to be a world-class pianist, but if she never is exposed to a piano, if she is not afforded with the opportunity to actualize that potential, it will most likely lie dormant and escape notice at all. But, we can say that she has the opportunity to get herself out of China and get to a place where her potential may be actualized. It is not necessarily impossible. And so, in this way, she does have some control. Either way, it seems to me that what we are (a human, a cat, a tree, etc.) is much less of a choice than who we are. While we cannot completely separate what we are from who we are, we certainly control the latter more than the former.

Can there be a who without a what? Can there be matter without form? Form without matter? Which is form and which is matter: the ‘who’ or the ‘what?’ Or, is it not limited to these choices? This brings up interesting yet problematical issues. It also could be connected in some way to illusion vs. reality, in the sense that if reality (who we really are) is the absence of illusion (who we (think we) are), we could see who we are as the matter (the potential) and who we really are as the form (the realized potential, though accomplished via negativa—, i.e., who we really are is (‘revealed’) in the absence of our conditioned ego-self), and this is how our paths of ego-illusion are our paths to reality, the self as the path, that the illusory self is the path; it is the potential of the reality of its own absence. It is interesting to combine these ideas, because one is metaphysically positive (form and matter), and one is metaphysically negative (illusion vs. reality).

We can also ask if there can be matter that is not itself formed matter, the actualization of previous potential. Would this be pure potential? Is form physical or metaphysical? Is matter physical and form (shape) metaphysical? It is hard to say that shape is physical. It has to do with physical material, but it itself is more of a force than physical matter. There can be no shape without something shaped. Of course, this is a great debate between the Platonists and Aristotelians—can shape exist independently of matter? Plato says yes, Aristotle says no.

This has everything to do with our understanding of existence. Can form exist without matter? How? Where? Aristotle says there cannot be form without matter (can you imagine matter—anything—that does not have some sort of form?) There cannot be ‘square’ without there being a thing in that shape. And yet, Plato might have said that an example of a circular object is but an actualization of the potential form that had to exist in order for that object to take that shape in the first place. It is not an easy issue to resolve. And as usual with such impasses, I always like to look at the basic assumptions involved, for it is most likely our own lack of understanding is causing the problem. One of these basic assumptions is the metaphysical existence of physical matter as noun-things, something which may not actually be true, which we can see at a quantum level.

Anyhow, it seems to come down to how a thing exists, as opposed to simply whether it exists. Is a line in circular form a circle, or is a circle 2πr (the mathematical expression of “circumference”)? But we speak of the circumference of a circle, so circumference itself cannot be a circle. But—and this is an important point—perhaps we are mistaken to speak of the circumference ‘of’ a circle because maybe ‘a circle’ is really circumference, and it is a grammatical error to speak about a circle’s circumference. It is absurd and meaningless, for it is like speaking about a circumference’s circumference, which is impossible. If this is indeed true, then there is not ‘circle,’ only ‘circumference.’

This is yet another instance of the importance of not mistaking grammar for reality: we make certain metaphysical assumptions when we talk about ‘the circumference of a circle.’ This grammatical way of talking about ‘a circle’ has, itself, defined for us the metaphysical parameters. But, grammar does not make metaphysical reality, does it? We mistakenly make assumptions based on the metaphysical assumptions inherent in the grammar we use to talk about things. This is a major mistake, and a source of great confusion.

In fact, we might say that it is incorrect to speak of a ‘circle’ at all; rather it is more accurate to speak of something being circular—in the above example, it is a line in circular form. And actually, circle, or any shape at all, is a wholly abstract concept, for such concepts are not physical things at all, but rather forms. There is no physical circle, only a physical thing that may be circular, only matter in the form, or shape, of what we call ‘circle.’ Thus, we can say that there are only examples of circle, the circular form. And to Aristotle, there are only examples, only examples are, only examples exist. Examples are what is real. And, in fact, it is incorrect to use the word ‘example,’ for that implies an example of something. Now, when that thing is just an illusory, abstracted concept, as it is to Aristotle, then that’s fine, but it is a problem when that thing is imagined to be a real thing (in fact, the only real thing in the equation), as it is to Plato.

To go with the form and matter discussion, our physical bodies are not all of our ‘matter’—if we take matter to be more than simply material and see it more as potential—for who we are is not simply our physiology. In fact, the form and matter theory becomes problematical in regards to natural, as opposed to created, things. In the brick analogy, the matter of the brick is the clay. A human’s matter would seemingly be his flesh and bone, etc., the material, in other words, of which he is formed. But when we answer the ‘whatness’ question, we answer with this material, for all humans are made up of this material. So the material (matter, thus understood) is the form, if the whatness is the form. What, then, is the matter of organic things?

Anyhow, who we are is more a product, or the process, of our ‘karma’, our choices, the circumstances of our lives. If this is the case, then matter follows form, which doesn’t fit into the theory. It seems, then, that the Aristotelian substance explains ‘what,’ but not ‘who.’ But, in the way that every end is a beginning and every beginning is an end, we can also say that every formed matter is also matter to be formed, every realized potential is also itself potential to be realized—for it is our minds that separate into ‘this’ and ‘that’ what may in reality not be separate.

We can also talk in terms of causes, that everything has a material cause (its whys, where and what it came from) and formal cause (its purpose, function, how it ends up). It is a question of what is behind and ahead of a thing in time. Where do we draw the lines of the thing, if it is itself the material cause of something else and the formal cause of something else? Where does death and birth fit into this?

What does all this have to do with the ‘real world?’ Well, I think that we can see people as being form and matter, as having potential to actualize. I think that we can see this matter as that potential, both in a physical and ‘spiritual’ sense. In that way, this potential, this matter, is who someone is. This matter can be formed in many ways, many of those ways existing as illusions. It seems to me that our formal cause can partly be understood as the realization of that matter, that potential. And in other terms, it could be called ‘enlightenment’—the process of knowing and being who you really are. It really does have a lot to do with my overarching themes and ideas about the difference between ‘who someone i’s and ‘who they really are’, between illusion and reality.

The interesting thing about potential is that if there is such thing as potential, a form as yet unrealized, then Plato is right about his notion that form can exist without matter. For matter enters a mold that was already there. How else could it take on that form if the form was not already there for it to take?

Again, I think the shortcoming here is in my lack of true understanding. For it is simply impossible for us to think about potential without there being something having (that) potential.

Again, I think the solution to the riddle is in the ‘logic’ of reality being the absence of illusion. Such an idea is not within a framework of time, of one being before the other, which is how we think about form and matter, potential either unrealized or realized.

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From my personal notes 8/1/00