That conversation that I had with T the other night at the bar, where he was, again, admonishing me for not being more like him, that I should “loosen up” and be okay with [doing "bad" things].
I think the idea that we should do anything simply because we do not fear it is stupid. Just because you do not fear something does not mean you should do it. That gives way too much power to fear, which is the problem with the idea.
The point is that fear is a bad reason to do anything. Just as it is wrong not to do something out of fear (fear being the controlling factor), it is just as wrong to do something simply out of the “lack” of fear, for fear is still the controlling factor, controlling by its ghostly absence, and thus still making it a part of the decision.
One should neither do, or not do, anything because of fear. It should be done or not done according to whether or not it is true to the person.
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From my personal notes, 6/6/00
